You didn’t hurt me ,I made a choice to make my heart vulnerable . i dun mean to be rude but who in this world has the right to tell you that you don’t deserve to be treated like a princess with respect and love ,everyone deserve to be treated as a special person.
No matter what a person has done nobody has the right to take away the one chance that everybody deserve ,human are born with their ears open and their mouth close ,I cannot stop rumors that is getting in your ears , and I don’t have the power to seal people mouth .
how special you are to me you will never know , but all the girls who really knows me knows very well in any period of time they can only be one place for that special person in my heart .every one who knows me , knows for a fact that I do not take girls seriously unless she is in a relationship with me , my longest ex girlfriend is 4 years and shortest is 1 year .
Insecurity can only be based on the fear of the unknown, only if you cannot predict an outcome then u will lose your confidence.
The insecure excuse can be only use when you do not know and when you cannot see, but in this case you have choose a crystal that is crystal clear so transparent so real that is no chance it can be fake.
None of us can ever be near ready for the right one, and mostly at times our judgment betray our decision. but I m sure that unless a girl can identify exactly what kind of man and what type of character she can click with and what is most important to her only then she will find out what means the most to her and receive the deepest needs of her own heart, I m sorry to say after some deep thought I realized that i too cannot accept an unstable relationship where my girlfriend does not even understand her self enough to know between right and wrong ,truth or lies and different shade the reality and fantasy. One can only change for the better, one can only know his weakness when he falls , I owe u a thank you but do not feel bad of this result because it is thru this journey that I realize what I really want that i finally see some one who is always beside me support me toward my goal and directing me side by side and waking me up in a nightmare that has in blinding me and pulling my self down into a immature unrealistic unreasonable and childish infatuation .i apologize to all my friend for being in such an emotionally handicap situation ,thank you all for being here for me I should have listen to your advice but the passion could not stop the flame. now that my attention i properly aligned I will celebrate this season of awakening with the special who has been always beside me, now is my turn to be strong and lend a hand when you need me .
I really thank my partners and my students staff and even my family for molding me into becoming the man I have always wanted to be. strong, stable, Confidence, positive and passionate in every way .lets start a good new leave with a good xmas!!!!!!!!
p/s: i think i am so ( chiung hei ) ( long gas )
but i am a dj mah........ish.......
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